Definitions for "Grudge"
To look upon with desire to possess or to appropriate; to envy (one) the possession of; to begrudge; to covet; to give with reluctance; to desire to get back again; -- followed by the direct object only, or by both the direct and indirect objects.
To be covetous or envious; to show discontent; to murmur; to complain; to repine; to be unwilling or reluctant.
a resentment strong enough to justify retaliation; "holding a grudge"; "settling a score"
To hold or harbor with malicious disposition or purpose; to cherish enviously.
To feel compunction or grief.
Sullen malice or malevolence; cherished malice, enmity, or dislike; ill will; an old cause of hatred or quarrel.
Keywords:  terribly, heavy, burden, thing, carry
a hard and heavy thing to hold and serves no-one least of all me
a heavy thing to carry
a terribly heavy burden to carry
Keywords:  slight, symptom, disease
Slight symptom of disease.